euphoria

I know the feeling of euphoria well. It can be a tingling and a buzzing that spreads throughout the body. It can be a feeling rising in my chest, like anxiety, only good. It's a dizzying high. I have felt euphoria without the aid of drugs. Falling in love, listening to music, exercising, socialising, dancing, drinking, seeing a band, seeing something pretty, or just catching the bus on a good day. All of these things have given me euphoria. I'm always chasing this high. None of these things really do it for me when I'm not in this happy state. But when they do, they do it good. Just fantasising about it is amazing, when I'm happy enough to be able to imagine it. It makes me want to run everywhere. It makes me want more of it. It makes me want to be around people, and it makes me feel charismatic.

I think this is how my obsessions with people came about. I would be attracted to someone, and just get such a high from being around or thinking about the person. It was the highest of highs, and so addictive.