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My mood dropped after seeing the psychiatrist today. Probably because there was nothing to feel apprehensive about.

I'm at home alone and it's night, but I'm doing okay. I don't know why I can't usually handle this situation. When I was younger if I was feeling alone I would have to have the tv or radio on to feel connected to the outside world. I used to fall asleep with the radio on.

These days, sometimes I'll find myself at home alone at night with no plans, so I'll get into a frenzy of trying to find someone to hang out with. It just comes from a fear of being alone. Sometimes I can handle it, though.